Graduation

The other day after I got my cap and gown, I went home to try it on. I thought that I might possibly just look in the mirror and begin to cry. But to my surprise I didn't. I seriously thought I looked ridiculous. I'm ready to graduate, but I'm not ready to leave everyone.

SPRING!

Isn't it supposed to be spring right now?! Why is the world is it so cold right now? Maybe it's just because it was sort of early in the morning, but it makes me so angry. I wake up in the morning, and it's cold. I leave school, and it's warm. I go outside while it's dark, it's cold again! I cannot stand it!

Moving on.

Seeing all of my friends at school, makes me want to stay at Apollo. I listen to all of these older people talking about all of the friends that they use to have in high school, but after they graduated they lost them all. You grow up more after high school, and you start making your own life... without your friends. I don't know about everyone else, but my friends ARE my life right now. Whenever I just want to get out of the house, I call them. They are my get away.

Graduation

I can't really decide if I'm ready for graduation or not. I'm excited to be going off to college, and basically living on my own. But then again, I don't want to leave all of my friends. I have a friend that is moving after the school year is over, and I'm really not ready for that. It's like the world is telling me to grow up, but I refuse!

The Future

1.Go to Rome
2.Become a Cardiologist
3.Go on a cruise
4.Join the Air Force or Navy
5.Have a HUGE house

Driving

The first time I drove, I was so nervous. I have high anxiety anyway, but driving sent it over the edge. I was so tense, and gripping the steering wheel with all my strength. My step dad told me to just relax, which is easy for him to say because he's being driving for YEARS. Now I can sit back and relax, unless I'm trying to get off the Frederica Street exit.

College Numero Dos!

I have recently discovered that the college I thought I would always want to go to, isn't that appealing anymore. I was so set on going to Murray, but now I've realized that I need to get away from old patterns. I was going to Murray for two reasons, and recently I've noticed that I need to make some changes in my life. Hopefully I make the right decisions.

Technology

The coolest piece of technology that I have today would have to be my phone. It's like a phone and mp3 player all mixed into one. It amazes me how much music it can hold, alone with all the numbers and text messages. I just can't wait until I'm old and gray, to see how all the technology will advance.

Fashion Statement

I was talking with one of my friends yesterday about someone in our class wearing clothes that didn't match. There was this person wearing all different colors. Their clothes colors consisted of blue, green, purple, black, and some other colors. I have to say, if this is a fashion statement... I'm scared. I try to make sure that my clothes match all the time, if they don't then I'm stressed.

Why the chicken crossed the road.

1. To get to the other side.
2. To get to the hen on the other side.
3. To run away from the cook.
4. To go to a party.
5. To leave this town.

Snow.

I am personally sick of all of the snow. I don't want to end up graduating in the middle of June. I just want to get into college already. I think that we should just end school when they originally planned it, instead of making up all those days. It's absolutely ridiculous!

Freezing

The only thing I dislike about winter is freezing my butt off. I wish we could have snow, but also be warm at the same time. It would be an amazing thing. I can walk into school, thinking that I'll actually be able to warm up. But the school is the same temperature as it is outside. It's insane! No wonder we're all sick all the time, and missing school.

Winter

While waking up for school in the morning, I look out the window. Wishing for snow, I find myself not knowing whether I want to go to school or not. When being a senior, it's hard to decide whether I want a snow day. When I think back on all the years I've went to school, I could never think of a day when I didn't want a school day. While staring out the window, I finally make my decision. Winter is an amazing thing, thank God for snow days.

Ugly Words

I don't think I've ever noticed any words that I've thought were ugly until now. I have thought of random words and these are the ones I have recently found to be just plain ugly: snot, mucus, pus, vomit, spit.

I'm sure there are many more words, but those are just the ones that I thought of right off the top of my head. I have no idea how people came up with some of the words we use today. I've always wondered what was going through there mind when they thought of these.

Bad Idea

I remember when I was younger, and we had those air fresheners that you had to push down in order for it to work. Well, I was probably about 7 or so at the time and I got this bright idea to try and open one with a butter knife. I wanted to know how the heck they got the air freshener in there. So as I was prying away at the darn thing, the knife slipped, and I sliced my finger. I cut was to my bone, and my mom started freaking out. She took me to the doctor and bandaged it up. I know I was a kid, but it still wasn't the smartest idea a kid could have.

2010

In the next 12 months I'm going to be graduating, packing my stuff and moving into my dorm in Murray, and possibly starting band camp with the Racer Band. I've got a lot of growing up to do, and a lot of learning how to making it on my own. I have to fins a job to support myself as I'm going through college, and I have to make new friends. I'm extremely nervous about moving to a different town without my family and friends, but somehow I must make it. My life is going to change completely, may it be for the better or worse. My hopes are that it will be for the better, but if it's not, you live and you learn. It's all part of growing up, and being who you knew you were alway meant to be.

Superstitions

I find most superstitions of be extremely silly. Like a black cat walking in front of you, and fearing the number 13. But on the other hand, I catch myself tossing salt over my shoulder when I spill it, avoiding latters, and knocking on wood. I am sure that people would think that my superstitions. But if I don't knock on wood, or though some salt over my shoulder, I feel anxious.

Reflecting

As I sit here on the first day of my last semester of my high school career, first I wonder if that has made sense, but mostly I ponder about my years here at Apollo. I still feel like I should be a freshman on my first day of high school, feeling scared and worried. I remember thinking about how my senior year would be and to be honest, it's definitely not what I expected. I expected having a job, driving to school everyday, having a blast at school, and driving home just to do nothing. As of now, I'm not doing any of those things. I have no job, therefore I have no money for insurance or gas, so I can't drive. I find myself trying to make up for my freshman, sophomore, and junior year. I was a slacker those years, not knowing that I'd be paying for it now. I find myself with scholarships due, and trying to figure out how in the world I'm going to pay for college. I find myself becoming an adult in 6 days, with no idea what's ahead of me. I find myself worrying about what I'm going to do in the long run and how I'm going to make a living. I'm barely an adult, and I feel like I have all the stress of the world on my shoulders. But somehow I know that I can do this, that I can make it in the world. With my parents helping me along the way, teaching me what is right and what's wrong. Somehow I know things are going to be just fine.